comel.

(from tomei)

comelnya.

dan tak mahal sebab 9k je.

haaa jimat. 

suka suka suka.

hahahaha.

p/s: just so you know, 9k is not in RM.

door gift or doorgift?

aku tak tahu ejaan mana yang betul. perbuatan memberi cenderahati atau buah tangan ni aku notice macam satu amalan dalam masyarakat kita. since aku tak pernah attend weddings of other races and religions, so tak tahulah hehehe.

aku pun sebagai bakal pengantin tak terkecuali dalam memeningkan diri untuk decide apa nak diberikan kepada tetamu. cuma satu keputusan yang pasti, aku kena kekang bajet sebab bajet memang ciput hohoho. dan aku memang suka challenge myself - aku aim doorgift tak lebih seringgit. hohoho kemut ke aku? ye, for some people memang aku kelihatan kedekut tapi tahukah kalian makanan tu aku tak cas kat korang pun kof kof koffffff. 

asalan idea aku adalah untuk memberikan jar yang diisi kacang sebab bersifat universal. in fact, aku dah siap email kilang minta quotation dan harga memang menepati citarasa.

harga cuma rm0.70. tetapi selepas aku berfikir panjang tentang kos kacang, sticker dan riben - zassssssss aku cancel hohoho. takpelah, walaupun aku mengidam nak buat menatang ni sebagai doorgift, aku kena sedar diri bahawa bajet ciput hahahah.

yang kedua, adalah menempah muffin daripada kenalan my other half. 

harga confirm tak lebih bajet. selama beberapa bulan aku berjaya menetapkan hati dan akal fikiran sebab fikir mudah, aku tak perlu fikir tahu-tahu dah siap semua. 

tapi mak aku sedikit menentang dia kata nanti berkulatlah simple sangat lah. aku orang muda, haruslah aku nak simple dan JIMAT hahahahaha. tapi tidak bagi mak aku. beliau berjaya buatkan aku stress seminggu lepas dengan menyatakan nak kirim kat akak aku yang ke bandung tuala muka pulak. katanya boleh start awal mendeko menatang tersebut dan tak perlu risau kalau gift tak abis.

yang ni, aku malas nak argue dah sebab aritu mak aku beria nak bagi hadiah bunga telur sebab lebih klasik kata mama kalau bagi telur. bunga telur nak buat sendiri konon nak tunjuk maknya pandai buat bunga telur. sebagai anak yang begitu mengenali ibu sendiri, haruslah aku bantah hahahahha menyusahkan aku nanti percayalaaahhhhh. end up dia nak tuala pulakkkk adoi mak macam-macam la hihihi. aku cuma diam, dan mak aku membuat pernyataan yang aku rasa pasti dia menyesal yakni dia nak sponsor hahaha. aku diam je malas nak layan. benda takde depan mata, gaduh pun tak guna. so far status menatang ni masih tak diketahui dan aku pun tanak cari pasal dengan bertanya hahaha.

aku fikir back up plan, just in case cadangan muffin aku ditolak lagi, aku nak pergi kamikaze ke ikea dan merembat cawan untuk dijadikan gift. aku fikir, beli cawan, wrap dengan kain net, letak tag. 

kebetulan aku nak ke jakarta setakat net tu berapa sen lah sangat aku boleh borong hihihihi. dah kalau betol omongan mama kata ada orang nak sponsor telur, aku nak make sure tukang sponsor tu rebus siap-siap bahahaha demand betul dahla orang nak bagi free. yela, at least aku boleh terus campak dalam cawan tu kennnn dasar pemalas hahaa.

seriously, aku banyak kerja. sibuk sangat. jadi carikla solution murah dan tak makan masa. nak pilih doorgift pun makan masa berbulan still cannot decide. aku nak buat semua last minute - nak tengok cukup tanah ah nanti nak terkejar sana sini hahahaha.

esok kita uruskan baiti jannati okay. more excited with this than wedding prep. pfffttt.

surveying caterer.

it has been a while i didn't talk about my wedding prep. not just because i'm busy, but i'm sickly worrying about something else hence mood nak buat persiapan kahwin semua ke laut huhuhu. tapi tadi kerana bosan menonton tv, aku pun belek-beleklah magazine pengantin untuk cari caterers yang harga reasonable.

i have few in my mind, but the decision has not been finalized yet, simply because aku tak pergi food tasting and discuss dengan other caterers. cuma buat phone talk dengan sri payung sebab mama loves it so much. aku kalau dengar je ada good food terus mellow hahahaha. yelah, niat nak bagi orang makan makan kenalah cari yang sedap, kan? dan yang pasti, kena suit budget. 

i was told that kalau kad 400 keping, means tetamu kena double, then plus 200. so aku budget guests dalam 1000 orang. i need a package yang include:

1. meja makan pengantin
2. 4 set dome
3. 26 meja, 300 kerusi (bersarung & ada ribbon)
4. makanan mencukupi untuk 1000 orang hew hewww.

so today, aku nak list few caterers yang aku rasa menambat hati tetapi perut tak tahulah lagi kena pi rasa dulu hahaha.

1. Sri Payung Catering & Canopy

- sri payung bagi quoatation 12k++. kalau ikut malas memang nak sebat je tapi hati kata sabarrrr.

2. Aimys Catering & Event

- tak contact lagi.

hahaha lepas aku surf sana sini, aku rasa dua jela kot setakat ni. nanti ada perkembangan aku update lagi. entah available lagi ke tak date aku tu huhuhu.

bila dok survey sana sini ni, baru terasa rumit jugak nak buat majlis kat dewan. mana nak fikir karpet merah lagi, dekorasi la pejadah lagi. adoiiiii renyahnyaa. 

moga dipermudahkanlah segala urusan.

maafkanku wahai suami.

baca artikel ini.

insaf.

hahah.

facebook.

"She hates me because I don't own a FB account".

"Yeah, she's weird".

"I'm not. I just don't like gossips. You have an account because you want to know about others".

"It's them who make it public; telling the world this and that, showing off".

"And you have the choice whether to read it or not. I choose not to".

aku tak suka bergossip.

aku suka dengar je.

kalau ada, ada.

kalau takda, tak apa.

sikit pun tak heran.

aku boleh je access FB my other half.

but all i did was reading the newsfeed and the MA group.

nothing else.

and that's even rare.

kadang aku ada satu perasaan; biar my other half tak add any of my TESL friends.

in fact, they were never friends to begin with.

and i'm training myself not to fall into minding others' business.

well, i'm just a human.

marriage and emotion.

a conversation with a close friend (close, but not the best hahaha), and a newly known classmate. the classmate is a guy, iranian but has been living in usa for quite some time; claims that he is neither american nor iranian. he doesn't belong to any. she said cool, i said pathetic hahaha. 

i was only interested in research matters, so basically i was just listening and thinking. i kept quiet a lot, and only interfered when necessary. i'm just like that. i don't easily open up to newly known people. i like to think that i'm mysterious hahahaha.

one of the issues debated was about how unfaithful iranian women are. he had this idea that even malaysian women are as unfaithful as iranian women; to which my close friend denied by giving few examples, in which that guy and me thought they were invalid because all the examples were old ladies hahaha. wanita melayu lama sangat setia, okay. very few cases pun yang cheated or at least, yang kita tahu dan dengar la.

i stood with my opinion that malay women love easy money. in fact, all women are becoming like that now. so sickening hahahha. so good opportunities (of having a stable partner) should not be missed. 

but that's not the point. what triggered me to write here is her statement when that guy dropped the bomb saying that her husband might have affairs since he travels a lot (he's a pilot). 

Her: Noooo i know he's not. He's as faithful as I am.

That guy: How would you know that? He's travelling and he's a man.

Her: Don't you ever put that thought in my mind. I won't allow you to do that.

Me: Yuppp, please don't. I can't bear the consequences. She'll let everything go at me. No, no.

Her: Hey, bila last time aku buat kau macam tu? Bila? [terus emosi hahah].

Me: What I'm saying is I couldn't stand you crying and be sad. I'll be mad, okay.

Her: Bila? Bila aku macam tu? Tu cita lama okay [emosi lagi]. 

That guy: Woo wooo what are you guys talking about?

Her: She said I was being emotional to her. Well, I'm no longer emotional. I'm married now so my emotions are balanced.

Me: You think? ha-haha. Yeah, she's much better when once she got married.

Her: I know my husband he wouldn't do that. I know he is faithful.

Me: Nobody is talking about your husband now. 
Her: Whatever~

Hahaha. point dia aku nak cerita, yang tak kisahla lelaki ke perempuan ke malaysian ke iranian ke apa pun la; kalau nak curang tu curang jela wehhhh.

and the moment when you keep on chanting that your spouse is not cheating, you are actually convincing yourself more than other people.

anddddddd, emotions don't vanish just like that; married or not. it's just not there because you've dealt with it.

and you just don't care.

don't give a damn anymore.
confront, say it out loud once and for all.

and move one.